a better life without you? the answer is HELL NO ! :(

                                   i miss you so badly :(

when someone ask me how i live my life without you, i cannot put it on words. if they're asking me am i having a good life without you.. the answer is HELL NO .!  i miss you so badly. im crying again and again and again. i need you to make me stop crying. i need you to wipe all my tears. i need you . but i dont know why we have to ended up like this munchkin. i love you, i need you but i have to leave you. im sorry. sorry for everything. sorry for all my words. i ckp u ni membosan kan i. but actually,  a life without you yg membosan kan. with you i feel everything. everything that i just cnot describe it on words. all i know now is i really miss you. feel like wanna cll u. but things is not like before. im not yours so im afraid to call you. afraid if you with someone else, and i feel the hurt. yeahh maybe u have someone else already *like u always did when we break up. 
i online just now. and jaja ade wall pic rabbit. and suddenly you cross my mind. do you remember bitbit? winwin? and birthday you i though nk beli kan rabbit. nk celebrate ngn you. but then, all the plan is change.  im soory amirul aiman. because we have to turn out this way. im sorry because i break all the promises. i want you back. but, as usual there's always a but kan? i want you back but........   u, be safe and take care. hope u're good with tempat kje baru u. i want to see you. but i tau, im not strong enough to face you and i dont know if we still cn be friends after this. because in my heart, i still love you as my special one not as a friend. if i ignore you after this, im sorry. dont blame me. its not because i have someone else but im just afraid if im not strong enough to be friends with you. i dont want to hurt you with my words anymore. so i should go. my words is just so tajam for you. bear this in mind, you're always with me. i noe u will not read this. but i dont know why, i just wanna tell you here that i love you amirul aiman . and i will always do.
and dear amirul aiman, after this please find a good gf. gf yg baik. bukan mcm 2 org bitch tu. :)  heheehhe.

take care, be safe, XOXO.